We miss you so much, Grandma

My Grandma passed away on 12th October 2006. It was early morning when she left us. It came a shock to me at first but now...I miss her. Thousands of words cannot describe how much I am missing her. I miss her so much. Sometimes, I can feel that she is still spiritually around us. Her smell, her touch. I have not lost anyone so close to death till now and I am still recurperationg and burying my sorrow. Sometimes tears just flow with fonder memories of my grandma. I didnt believe in "next life" before. But now I hope there is. I hope my grandma will reborn to a family of love and no worries. I hope that my grandfather would be able to find her and bring her happiness. I hope she will be able to recieve all the after-life gifts burnt for her, I hope she will be free from pain... People who is not in my shoes will find my hopes eerie. Till they encounter the lost, they can never understand the pain of losing a kin or someone close. My family are still mending their pain and their lost. Someone so wise, so gentle, so fun, so creative...is on her way to paradise. Grandma, we miss you and will always remember you.